January, you suck.

January is honestly, a very sick month.

I don't really like this month particularly maybe because of school. It's unfortunate that the most busiest semester has to fall in the first month of a new year and that makes everything of January more painful. Let's see. Chinese New Year is two days away and hey, I am busy doing my project and I will be busy studying during CNY for next week's tests. )=

January sucks too because of some confessions which still bother me sometime, and maybe they will bother me for the entire year.

I think February will be better. I will make it better.

Goodbye January!

我不配, 你明白吗?

♥

I don't know how to express how I feel right now and neither do I have anyone to talk to about how I feel because I know no one will understand. If I tell him how I feel, he will probably misunderstand me and drift off thinking that I am in love with you (which I am not, I swear).

But how do I explain this feeling of missing someone I shouldn't miss?

Is it the memories? Is it you? Or is it because of what we had talked about?

Moments that I'm proud of (Gaming)

Rank 90, thanks to everyone's hard work!

Chain 15 in CC4. Weeeeee~

Couple won medal for I-don't-know-how-many-times

My one and only time full chain.

My one and only time no miss in 3254 BU @@

Chained 22 in Club 4!

OKAY I AM DAMN BORED AND HYPER AT 415AM. I SHOULD SLEEP. GOODNIGHT.

Human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that’s what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that’s what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah
I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that’s what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah

I’m only human
I’m only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
Until I’ve had enough

‘Cause I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah

Random love for an object

I have a desk in my room which is rarely used by anyone in my family. My desk is filled with junk, toys, books, worksheets and whatever there is, waiting to collect dust. The only times when I'd use my desk would be on days like these, when I have to focus on doing projects because doing projects on my bed had always been a distraction.

My bed loves to seduce me )=

But today, coffee is here to accompany me... and my cramps!

I love my desk now :D

My promise.

She left him because he had no money and he was left with a broken heart as a child was taken away from him. He left her with no choice and he had to leave in a graceful manner for pride.

I was so mad at her when she sent me messages few days ago just to let me know how bad a father and husband he is. But I couldn't say anything because somewhere deep in my heart, I know it's true. I was so mad at her when she told me her reasons for leaving. I was also mad at him because he just let it go.

Really, is that true love?

It's the second time I've witnessed this happening in my family. I vow to never be like them.

Sad .

It's only about week 3 of 2014 and I am barely surviving. Bad news every single week. I can't breatheeeeeeeeeeeee.

My new found fear

The visit to the doctor yesterday was painful. I finally went to the doctor yesterday to consult about my persisting problem and the result was not desirable. I think I am someone who is very weak, forever plagued with illnesses. Although this little problem of mine is curable, the doctor told me to brace myself for what is to come.

Yes, I think I am dying, in some way.

Sigh... I'll still have to go back for a blood test and another scan.

That odd feeling

I've been having really bad nightmares the past two days. They weren't exactly 'nightmares' because they were of good times, about something I should not dream about and I woke up to find myself being in cold sweat and to wonder why this is happening.

It is a really odd feeling because it feels good and bad at the same time.

My dreams reminded me what happiness really is and they also reminded me that it is long gone.

Crazy 4am thoughts

It's past 4 in the morning and I just made a promise to myself. It's really crazy being awake at such timing every single day. School starts at 9 today. Oh my god :(

Well, I promised myself to sleep before 1am every day unless I really can't finish up my tutorials or projects. No more gaming or videos after midnight until I graduate.

I'm freaking serious!