I guess that I did actually meant what I said before everything ended. I thought I said that harsh statement because I wanted to test you and I didn't want both of us to feel awkward and disturbed by everything. But well, I guess that nightmare actually happened. It's no longer my business but I honestly feel saddened by this situation because you'll always remain as a sad memory.

I don't know how people cope with this type of loss because I've never handled it well anyway. But just so you know, I'll give them a different answer whenever they ask me that same question again.