Damn it. I still feel sad because of you.

I didn't expect that I would feel this way, and for that long. It has been a week since the nonsense started. They think we are very dramatic about the whole situation but no one understands.

Today when you asked me why I gave that quote to you, my answer to you was honest - I don't know. I don't know what to say to you and I don't know what I want you or myself to do. I am glad you didn't push it further, because I think you know there is a problem we both don't want to talk about. And for that, I thank you.

We used to be very open-minded, telling each other how we feel about everything. We could actually talk about anything under the sun. It felt childish but yes, we both enjoyed our somewhat lame conversations. And today, I can't believe that I have started to ignore you.

I thought I didn't mean what I said to you last week. I told you that I would leave if things like that happen again. I even counted with you how many times the bullshit happened. And yes, it has been more than 5 times and I am surprised that I could tolerate that bullshit for this long. Nothing new has happen yet, but I don't want to sit back and get hit by another wave of emotions.

My dear friend, you know I love you. If you want me to see you suffer, no thanks. I will back off. I will run and hide until everything is back to normal. I hope you get the new quote I wrote for you today. And as I promised you, one week of hiatus for me.