It took me weeks to realise what has been bothering me, how it has affected my mood every single day and how difficult it is to move on from something that has so much wonderful memories in it. I don't understand how this works. I really don't. I don't know how to walk away from something that I no longer have a share in.

But it's always there. It's always there to bother me somehow. I don't know what the reminder is. I don't know what I should discard. I have to act natural every day. I hate it so much.

Sometimes, I wish that there is something capable of erasing everything.