The pain I will always remember

Having one of the most painful (physically) experience right now and I feel like dying. Couldn't really remember how this started until today and being brought back to those painful memories is a torture. I hope the pain will subside soon because I don't want to find myself going back into that horrible place where I would always get stares and comments from judgmental people.

Right now... reading your blog to assure myself that you will always be there for me is my comfort.

I. AM. PATHETIC.